Wednesday, April 2, 2014

Make life hectic and rewarding.

This month is different. The feelings are different. Perspectives are different.

From time to time, there's something that would change what you think out of a sudden. You become a new man. People change. What is principles at the end of the day?

Anyway, life has been really hectic lately. So many things to do. To be honest, i'm quite liking the fact of being busy. It keeps you going rather than slowing you down and to do nothing. I'm really scared of not doing anything. Yes, I want to find time to relax and chill. Cycle to the beach and just spend the evening there, watching the sun set and watching the night lights shine. I really want to do that but things has been piling up for me. Assignments, projects, internship, friends, clubs, exercise, doing covers, movies. I love it when you are busy and you know what you need to do to finish it and at the end of the day, you feel accomplished. You feel like you have done something. Being creative is the one that drags, the assignments, the projects, the ones that needs your brain juice, adrenaline to pump it up. It's so frustrating, I don't know about you but I think in general, arts students are in the same dilemma too.

What I have been busy with?
MoMU(Malaysians of Melbourne University) Club. I'm the IT Director. I need to produce a newsletter by the end of every month. I compile the content and send it to my officer to do it. I need to update the website. Ahh, the website is not updated for a month already and there's so many events that I need to put it up. Have to have meeting every Wednesday after my 6 o'clock class.

Meld Magazine. Yes, I'm in it as a social media manager intern. I'm in charge of Tumblr now. So i have to keep on updating the site now until June. I have to be there for meetings, workshops, and everything. I need to be quite present with this. Now, I'm quite lost with what's happening. It feels like a freelance job. But anyway, that's that too.

Uni. I have a 100% project due in June. I have to be updated with that if i'll be doomed. Like really die. April 11th I have an essay due. Week 7 I have an assignment due. I have to choose 2 tutes for my marketing assignment. I have not done any readings since the start of the semester. I need to do it but i'm so busy that I could not. I really need to.

Friends. Don't get the wrong idea but I love hanging out with friends. To just spend time with them and chill with them. I love that. Going out for dinners, spending the night at friend's place, exercising with them, watching movies, cycling. This is what makes uni so fun.

Exercise. I've tried to play more badminton. But I really need to exercise, lose weight. Eat healthily.

That pretty much sums up my current life.
To be honest, i've tried living life to its fullest. Not setting down with being sad, being depressed, being demotivated by things that will drain you your energy and time. I choose to live. I choose to be happy. I really think it's a choice everyday we make to feel this, to feel that. I guess what I tried to do is. To just take each step at a time. Sometimes, yes, I do get too overwhelmed with myself, I get over too much, sometimes I just miss out. That's life isn't it? Even though I'm tired, I still try my very best to go for the next one, to look forward for the next one. Probably that's why I needed the rest. I haven't really rested myself since the internship back in KL. I need a holiday.

I want to be myself. I don't really care what people think of me anymore. Well, I try to. I was actually working on my 1 second a day video, I don't think I'm up to date with it anymore. I'm too overwhelmed with the things outside the phone than to record it down with my phone. Sometimes the occasion is bigger than the phone. What I really need to do now is just settle myself. I'm too out, I'm never in, if you know what i'm saying. In other words, I'm always outside of the house than to be at home. This semester, is so strange because last sem, I used to stay at home and be with my computer the whole day. Now, I use my ipad more often than to open my laptop and use it. I've been playing a lot of guitar lately. I didn't know I can play so many songs. It's really nice with what I can come up with with the guitar. The acoustic covers. I love it. I've been uploading a lot of covers. My YouTube is quite alive right now. I'm quite proud of it actually. Here's to more videos to come.

Long time I never bought groceries, today was the first time being in like what, a month? I should cook more, eat more healthy food, and exercise and burn my belly and boob fats. I want to wear white shirts! Oh, there's one weekend where it was really hectic. Thursday I was doing my assignment till late like 5? but I couldn't do. It was due the next. At one, only I started doing and finish off at 4:30. Then I was chilling with friends until like 5 again? The next day I have MoMU race? That was the whole day, then I went to my friends house for steamboat, played kinnect, sweating, went for clubbing, then I slept at 5 again! Sunday, I went for church at 11 after that. It was so hectic that time. Wait, it was just last week. It shows how busy life is right now. Everyday there's always something to do. I become quite ignorant towards Christ. It's so hard to have a relationship with Him. I want to? As soon as you channel everything you are doing and let God be the centre of it. That's more or less, the true meaning of having a relationship with Him. You trust Him, He will do wonders. Attending church is not enough, I want to be involved. I want to say that, yes, everyday, I do think of Him and whatever I do, the focus is towards Him. I want to say that. I really hope this year I would change to be closer to Him.

Probably the summer, it changed me a lot. I guess when I started working, it gave me a new sense of direction and some new perspective. To actually appreciate and to take risk, to seize all possible opportunities. I guess this is what you call living life to its fullest? I do the things I love. Badminton, YouTube, movies, singing, friends, dancing, etc. Not wasting time on other things that does not benefit me. It sounds selfish but it's not. It's just you knowing how to choose. The pursuit of happiness. If happiness was ever to be pursued. To look forward to each day as it comes. I believe if you know how to channel yourself to do what you want to do and to do what you need to do. You will see that there is more to life itself. Don't focus your energy on the things that will bring you down and learn how to say no. Because draining your energy and time is the last thing you want to do if you want to end your university life with a bang. I know for a sure, I don't want to regret when I start to work for the rest of my life knowing that I could have not much more when I was in Uni.

Working life and university life is so bloody different. I don't like it but I know in the end, you have to accept it. Oh well, i'm living the university life and before I can think of my working life, I want to know that I enjoyed my university life. So bring it on, life. Show me what you got because I'm ready to take in what's in for me.