My schedule for this exam month.

I’m having a dilemma right now.

I don’t know what type of angle should I focus on.

I’m tired and I’m craving for sweets and KFC! Been resisting for days now.

I’m praying for adrenaline so that I can start my work.

I have 3 essays to do and CULS blog assignment due on the 4th

Net comm is due first on 8^th of November

CULS essay is due on the 11^th and

This comparing media system essay is due on the 12^th.

If I can do my comparing media sytem essay right now, like plan it and do some research and try to finish it by 3^rd?

Spend one day on the 4^th to finish my blogging.

Then start doing my net comm and finishing it by 8^th.

And then go full on for CULS till the 11^th.

Spend on whole day on the 12^th to finish edit my media system essay.

I need at least 2/3 days to plan my media system essay and start writing it! All in 5 days? And then hopefully by 3^rd I will finish it.

Net comm I need at least 2 days to read and do my research. Another 2/3 to write and edit which also comes to another 5 days.

If 3^rd I can finish writing my media system essay then I can go full on for net comm till the 8^th.

After that I will need to go full on for CULS essay.

Need to watch brokeback mountain to analyse the movie.

Takes another 1 or 2 days to analyse and research. And another 2 days to write it all out. So altogether 4 days hopefully. That’s why by 11^th have to finish it.

And take one full day to analyse and edit media system and pass it up on 12^th.

Rest for a day!

Then have to go full on for internet marketing

Revise lectures and memorise

19^th is my exam so I have to do as much as I can from 13/14^th and go full on till the 18^th night!

Have to go through 12 lectures and make exam notes!

This is my schedule for the next 4/5 weeks!

The small things.

Mighty Men gave me some perspectives.
I need to make some changes.
It's not about living life not knowing where you're going but setting out paths to maybe bring you in for a higher purpose.
Let yourself be open to chance and open up for opportunities.
I guess i've been over doing it till the point where i procrastinate, i don't do what i love anymore and i'm not loving the life i'm living everyday, everything is so mundane and ordinary.
It's hard defining your own self.
It's hard to know where you are going.
I want to live an extraordinary life.

There's so many goals for me to achieve but there's only one life for me to live.
To experience, to love, to care.

1. Be faithful and honour God.
2. Exercise
3. Piano
4. Make videos that can make a change, make short films.
5. Learn new things, get internships and experience for my career.

I think I've set out these goals cause it's my main, main priority.
To become the person you want to be, is by changing yourself first before you can change others.
You are not the one responsible to change or to give anything to anyone if you don't have your foundations right or if you don't even know how to handle yourself.

There are things that I must sort out for myself first.
My lifestyle.
My work ethics.
My personality and attitude.
My relationship with God.

Seems like a lot but i think it sets me out some goals to achieve.
Be the person you want your daughters to look up to.
Be the person you would treat anyone like it's your family.
Take in the perspective of others to become that person you want to become.

I know this post is a little bit biased and really positive and full on optimistic.
But i guess is these kind of things that drives us to be better each day.
You do not want to wake up in the morning not wanting to have a nice day.
Even though you die, you die living, knowing that you lived a happy life.

There are mistakes that i've done,
made some decisions that are wrong,
bad experiences and just difficult encounters,
but I think if you ask, pray and just have faith that no matter what happens,
a breakthrough will come. God will answer to all your problems.
We come to deny, avoid and just stay in our comfort zone and not sorting out the burdens we have,
but if we place our focus to surrender and ask God for guidance,
you will soon understand that the faith you have will increase your confidence and self-esteem.

I really want to go back to the Lord of The Rings world again.
I really want to watch the 3 movies again.
I want to be crazy over again.
I want to have this marathon again.
Since my birthday until now, i haven't watch it yet.
I've been listening to the soundtrack over and over again these few weeks.
It really calms me down and just makes my day so relaxing and just lets my burden goes away.
Thank you Lord for Howard Shore who creates such beautiful music. It's all Your wonders.
especially Lord of The Rings. Thank You for that. A fantasy that I've grown to love and love even till now. Thank you bro for showing me that day in our old house.
Can't wait for the last Lord of The Rings concert!

Few updates on myself!
I've got myself an internship position in JWT.
I hope it all works out fine.
I'm currently learning a song on the piano!
I hope i can learn more than just a song in the future.
I'm currently doing little push-ups and sit-ups every morning and stretches as well, it does feel good!
I hope i can be fit by next year.

I'm still procrastinating a lot!
I'm still not reading my bible.
I'm still not making short films like I should.
I'm still not reading the books that I bought especially The Hobbit!
I'm still not saving up money when I should not spent so much on a daily basis.

I promise that I will change myself to be better.
To be a better person, so that in future, i want to say that I'm proud of who i become.
I promise to have a better relationship with God.
I promise to be healthy.
To be successful.
These are the life goals that I want to achieve.
Cause somehow or rather I just have this crazy idea that I want to change the world.
But first, I need to change myself and then take it from there.
Even the smallest things can create value.
Sometimes big things doesn't mean you are successful.
But the small things is what really matters.

Fluctuations.

So many things yet to learn.

So many things yet to discover.

I'm just 20 years old.

There's too many things in my mind which is irrelevant.

There's nothing for me to lose at this stage.

Sometimes we think too much,

We get scared of the things we do not know.

I always say that I think too much,

But really, to be honest, I don't really know how to solve my problems.

At one point, I had this urge to blog, to blog so many things that happened.

I wish I could list it out all the things out here and explain what is it about.

But things, they, they just disappear so fast.

It didn't allow me to stay put and slowly decipher the things that happened.

I guess to really do this I need a map,

A map of the things that I value, what I need, what I want and to map it all out,

So that, I can live my life accordingly.

You are embarked on a journey that you do not understand.

Of all the sufferings of the world that you don't know much about,

Out of the sudden when you are on this journey,

You begin to find that this is way bigger than what you originally planned.

You wish to do great things but you're scared.

You begin to do something that you don't want to do.

You just want to get rid of it.

It's a responsibility.

But I guess, this responsibility has its price. You sacrifice for the greater good.

You wish to just stay back to your comfort zone but because of the circumstances, you have to get out of it.

Lucky to have someone by your side, but sometimes they do not understand even though they are right and also providing you all the confidence you needed. 

Sometimes you just need someone that understands your pain.

People come and go but what is important is that you do what you need to do.

I believe, once the journey has ended, you will never be the same again because how can you go back to the life where it once was, some hurts that goes too deep, you begin to realise that there's no turning back.

What I learned in church yesterday was really compelling.

Gift/Talent produces service.

Service produces credibility.

Credibility produces influence.

Influence produces change.

Change produces atmosphere.

Atmosphere produces seed.

Seed produces fruit.

Fruit produces dominion.

All of these surrounded by the work of love

You need to find your gift to bring service. This service is not slavery but out of love to serve with the need to have credibility in order to have influence. Because, without credibility you will not have an influence. This influence is important to have change you want to see in this world. Everyone talks about change but without putting your gifts and talents to service which then produces credibility and then influence, you will not have change. This change we see creates an atmosphere. This atmosphere is where everybody would see this change and from there a seed is put into their lives and this seed can then produces fruit. This fruit that it has become, is dominion.